Okay so.. Once upon a time, there was a boy K.. And back then he liked me. But by the time I realized that it was mutual, all was too late.

A few years later, I met a guy D. Everything about him reminds me of K but I managed to shake the feelings off and we became really good friends! :) [D was so much more gentlemen than K! Owns him hands down!]

Then a few months later, I happen to meet N. Who is almost exactly like K. Not look wise but personality and character wise. It is so scary!! [I can’t even look at N in the eyes cause everytime I do so, I think of K. How!!!!]

I get reminded of alot of things between me and K. Friendships most importantly. It is hard to get over cause K was my first ever “crush”. Can’t say first love cause he weren’t my first boyfriend and honestly speaking I don’t think I loved my first bf as much as K. And now K and i are no longer friends who can face each other and talk properly..

Something I really regret alot..

Note to self: Must check CDC every I come online..

Checking my uni app status, online shopping, making payment, watching drama, checking email, blogging, getting tuition kids, signing up with agencies, finding jobs.. All through my iPhone… I hardly ever use my comp now.

I wonder what will happen if i have to say bye to my iPhone… :(

jessebarrera:

juliasegal:

Instant reblog.

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alyssabernal:

future house

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Tim Koda-Bury My Heart ORIGINAL* (by TimKoda)

I’m so touched by this vid!

melaniealys-:

namdiez:

chemical-kids:

********TRY TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE SOMETHING WAS HER FAULT**********
yeah. 

Okay, no. I absolutely agree with several of these, but a lot of them are absurd.

• 2: If she can’t handle how sarcastic you are, why are you two together? It’s just going to cause problems.
• 10: If you can’t mention or talk about one of your friends that is a girl without being yelled at, there is a major trust issue. I’ve done the whole not-mentioning people thing, and it doesn’t solve anything. I refuse to be in a relationship with someone who tries to govern who I talk to or who/what I talk about.
• 11: If you can’t mention your ex without causing an argument, the above is also true. Having a conversation about things that were good or bad about prior relationships can strengthen the current one. It’s called learning.
• 15: This one is REALLY dumb. Don’t ask her why she’s mad at you? If you made an honest mistake and had no idea that it would upset her, why on EARTH would you not ask? I would never apologize without understanding why what I did was wrong, simply because it detracts from the authenticity of the apology. If you ask why she’s angry and have a discussion about it, you can resolve the issue and avoid it later on.
• 16: If that’s really the case, then you’re clearly dating someone with no sense of humor. 
• 17: This goes along with 15. Have a discussion about what’s going wrong, about why she’s mad. If you think she’s overreacting, talk about it. Don’t accuse her, talk about it.
• 18: If she’s worried about they way you’ll behave with other girls, then, ipso facto, she doesn’t trust you completely. That’s a whole other set of issues.
• 19: Making excuses is markedly different from giving an explanation. The former is ill advised at best. The latter can help explain your actions.
• 20: Or, you could talk about what’s making you angry in a civil manner. It is possible, contrary to apparently popular belief.

Oh Gus ^ , Thank you. 

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nimbostratusmusiclub:

E.T Cover

This is an awesome cover by Alyssa Bernal one of my fave song by ms Perry! she kills It!

This is her official youtube page http://www.youtube.com/user/hchsknights08

Yesterday was a fruitful day. I met up with Jianhao whom I haven’t seen since I was still a small girl who loves jumping around, screaming and shouting?! :O Well at least that was what he said. Went through the university application process and he showed me his THICK stack of “supporting documents”. I should have taken a photo to show you guys how THICK it was. Slipped my mind.

Met with Daphne afterward. My dear sakae buddy!! I haven’t met up with her properly for the longest time. It was hilarious cause we decided to have dinner at Sakae but realised that we can’t eat sashimi, unagi etc, fearing that it might be contaminated by radiation._.

And..

Today was really fidgety, jittery and uneasy. I realised SOO many friends have requested for appraisal forms, referral letters and I did not. No wait, I didn’t even know I have to submit “supporting documents” for NTU and NUS since they didn’t even request from me. I didn’t fill in the discretionary admission either cause there really is nothing much for me to write.

SMU interview is tomorrow! I am scared :(

I want to know badly what courses I’ve gotten into for which uni. The anxiety is really killing me :(

I hardly admit to myself but I am scared. I am scared to let my emotions show. I am scared to admit that I am scared. I am scared of being scared. In most circumstances, I would gladly ignore any sort of emotions I feel. How unhealthy.

I used to be that young naive little girl that believed everything everybody says. I used to be that little girl who’s sensitive to people’s feelings. Only to realise that others don’t give a damn about how you feel.

Growing up is not just becoming physically more adult-like but also mentally. Every time you grow out from a phase of your life, you become “older”. Wiser in that sense.

I’m sad to say that in this 4 terrible years of my life, I have been growing physically, but not mentally..